angie

ohhh damn it all

2006-04-25T23:37:41Z

so today i found out i will definately not have a job next year.

yay.

i cant stand living at home anymore and being treated like a child. my parents treat me like "their baby" and its so nice- but SO too much for me to take. i NEED to be on my own, im going crazy. no wonder i hated my life in high school.

im really hating needing to move out, and not being able to afford to. if i sub next year, i wont even make enough money a month to pay rent. much less get my masters (which i need to start to keep my certification), or save up for a house (which it seems like i will never get).

shit shit shit shit shit

oh yeah, and fuck farmington and all those stupid teachers who talked me out of going to the job fair because ill "definately have a job next year" - you were Wrong!

plinkityplink @ 2006-04-13T23:24:00

2006-04-14T03:29:52Z

so its official

everyone ive ever associated as a "friend" has turned out to be a total selfish bitch. where do i find there narcasistic, drug-addicted "friends" because i am sick and tired of being let down again and again and again. im i really that niave to think that if you make plans with someone that you'll actually hang out - or at least talk to them about canceling plans. am i that stupid to think that my "friend" wouldnt leave me on a corner in detroit. am i that socially deformed that the only people who want to be my "friends" no longer talk to me or care about me when it becomes inconvienient-even though i call them or email them and get no response. im sick and fucking tired of it. im not a peice of shit- why should i be treated that way be ever "friendship" i have ever had.

fuck you
all of you

buh

2006-04-03T01:38:09Z

wanting, wishing, waiting..
always telling myself it will be okay..

always disappointed

oh yeah... and the rye grass growing in the modge-podged pot in my room died :(

you know you love my lipgloss

2006-01-02T00:59:36Z

do you ever find yourself in a deja vu situation? not the club in kzoo... like that kind of situation where you know you should have known better. you should have seen it coming. i think i trust too much. i think i just give people the benefit of the doubt, and forgive too easily. i need to surround myself with people that i actually can trust, that i dont have to second guess their integrity or their intensions. the last few years i have put myself in the same situations with certain people over and over and i keep getting the same result. and i think im going to stop. ive said it before, but im just too forgiving and i guess naive. silly me, wanting to see the best in people. maybe i should just see the situations for what they have been and not sugar coat them. i need to realize that even though things went south, over and over again, that maybe its not my fault. maybe it wasnt because they didnt mean it, or because it was just a weird situation, but that maybe they're just shady pple, and i really cant trust, or that i shouldnt. i just put myself out there to be walked all over, and for some reason i am surprized every time. and everytime it hurts just a little bit more than the time before. im kinda sick of it. but its such a trap, having to give up, i hate that. its like failure. but so its trying. so whats the use. cant people just figure out what they want and stop dragging me along behind them until they figure it out. think about someone else for once could you? geeze louise.
what a rank, okay, im done.

plinkityplink @ 2006-01-01T17:38:00

2006-01-01T22:42:06Z

Happy New Years (:

See more at my photobucket... I tried to loop it all in LJ, but its all screwy, so go to the link, thanks (:
Pics

so this sucks

2005-12-15T00:31:55Z

i decided that once again i suck at making friends. everyone at my school has officially joined a click- except for me. there was a staff bb game tonight and i didnt realize it was an Everyone goes to it think, and not one of my "friends" told me they signed up to help out. suddenly i went from part of the group that goes walking and out to eat and stuff all the time, to totally out of the loop. i dont get it. i realized they stopped "inviting" to go walking with them after school, because it bothered them, and they would make fun of me for being "skinny" and i dont go to after school things b/c i go work out. its like... everyone ones to be skinny but everyone hates the skinny one. shit im not even skinny im just healthy. ive seriously considered gaining 50 pounds so everyone else at work doesnt feel threatened by hanging out with me. just today i had 3 other teachers tell me i was skinny and didnt have to work out. bah humbug. im not good at this social shit. theres a party with 40 teachers on saturday, why did not one of the people i thought were my friends tell me they were going, i didnt know until today that that many people were going, and yesturday was the last day to say i would go! Its like its on purpose. how come i never hear pple talk about this stuff? oh yeah, its because im on a fucking cart and im not there for hall duty, or because i ahve the lunch with all the old teachers, or because i just suck, maybe i offened everyone in some way. i dont get it. for some reason everyone just spites me and avoids me. do i smell or something? i say hi and pple just dont care to go out of their way to say hi to me. i wont even get into how much the teachers i share rooms with hate me. boo hoo they suck. pple steal cds from the lab the day i sign up for it- its like im invisible... i actually signed up for the library, for 2 days in a row, and another teacher signed her name Over mine, b/c she didnt see my name there. buuuhhhhh. im ready for break, although sitting at home with my parents wont be much better. im so over this. i was over high school by sophmore yeah, i was over college freshman year, and im sooooo over living at home again. im ready to move on with my fucking life, and be able to go out during the week and do things like go to the charity bb staff game, because i dont live half an hour away anymore. my life kinda sucks. boo hoo.

buh.

saturday night

2005-10-17T00:43:05Z

my friend julia is in town from arizona and we want to go out dancing to crazy 8's next saturday... wanna come? or do you have any fun suggestions? let me know (: i havent hung out on the east side for a while, im excited (:

blah blah blah

2005-10-01T07:49:41Z

so, here i am, at 3:40am. i was sooo tired from my first full week at work, that ran over an hour b/c we had lock-down at our school, that i actually laid down to take a "nap" and woke up 7 hours later in the middle of the night. yep... my times are all screwed up now. I havent been awake at night for like months. teaching is seriously draining, i get tired at like 7:30 every night and have to dvr and shows i like on tv that start after 10 b/c i cant stay awake and make it through the next day. oh yeah.. and the whole living alone at my brothers house this is awesome - but totally lonely and boring. im like a hermit, me and my dvr-ed degrassi, all alone, shut in the house that has no heat, and is Freezing cold right now. Im so out of the loop, living in livonia, i seriously have no friends except dominic. and even still, i only see him 2 times a week. im like seriously dying to have a social life that consists of more than 12 year olds and teachers (cause you know.. teachers are awesome and all, but we're still teachers.. i need more outlet than just going to chili's with the other newbee's). i need a really fun big keg party, like for halloween, where i can get all dressed up and get wasted- maybe just need to be back in college for a semester. although, college kinda sucked, because i didnt really go out then either (not since freshman year at least). is it wrong that im only 22 (the youngest teacher in my school by at least 2 years) and im jealous of my students' social lives. they go out and do more fun things (pg-rated and all, but at least fun stuff), than i do, and im legal, over 21, and sit at home and watch tv, eating for hours on end. i also totally miss swimming, i used to swim at 6:00am a couple days a week, and theres no pools around here, there something about getting up in the freezing cold and forcing yourself to get up in the freezing cold and drive to the pool that makes you feel really accomplished, or at least it gives you a good start to the day, something out of the ordinary- alarm goes off, get up, grab orange juice, drive to work, hang out with kids all day, come home, eat, watch tv, eat, go to bed. Boorrrinng.
at least i have tomorrow (well.. later today to look forward to).. the heater dude is coming to fix the heater, and i have 55 folders, 55 tests, and 55 quizzes to grade, as well as ch.12 to read and plan, a project to design and write a rubric for, critter care to "invent" and investigation 3 in science to "figure out." maybe ill just go shopping instead... i did get paid today (yesturday). i hear jcpenny and kohls are having sales... alright, i didnt hear it because i dont talk to anyway, but i read it in the sales paper. okay, this is long.. gnight

plinkityplink @ 2005-09-18T18:46:00

2005-09-18T22:46:36Z

so i heard a rumor about apple picking... if it hasnt already happened i Definately want to know when it does (:

plinkityplink @ 2005-09-16T12:09:00

2005-09-16T16:09:57Z

No school today! And I got paid!

Lets go out and do something fun today, what do you say?

plinkityplink @ 2005-09-12T21:02:00

2005-09-13T01:03:50Z

so i finally finished my homework tonight.. and im a little buzzed from the woodchuck cider ive been drinking while grading tests and notebooks and watching 7 episodes of degrassi high in a row.

being a teacher isnt so bad (:

p.s. i get paid friday, lets go out and do something fun (:

plinkityplink @ 2005-08-27T22:04:00

2005-08-28T02:09:28Z

so this weekend was fun - i went to mt. clemens and hit up the fair, and then i ran into ashley (: who i havent seent in like 5 years, and then we got drunk at crazy 8s. fun stuff, and then today my brother had a house warming party with lots of good food.

fun times, i cant wait til next weekend (: im moving into my brothers house, and going out to the bar with my co-teachers

it just gets worse....

2005-08-11T01:46:05Z

im having a hard time really acknowledging how lucky i am - i mean i know i am.. but...

not only am i a floater on a cart, but i have 3 classrooms, an advisory class in the library, my desk at the other end of the building in another teachers classroom (that i dont teach in) and a class downstairs (w/o a break before it) called "critter care"... what is that about?????

out of 12 new employees, im the only one i know of that doesnt have a room. of the other middle school teachers hired that i met at the orientation, ive come to the conclusion that i really got the bad end of the stick.. most of the teachers only have One prep (instead of the Three i have) and they have classrooms :P

oh buh

at least i have becki's wedding to get excited for (:

plinkityplink @ 2005-08-08T17:32:00

2005-08-08T21:35:38Z

thats right - i am officially homeless!!

i found out today that i am a "cart teacher" with no home, no classroom, no place to keep my books, probably no computer, just a desk in another teachers classroom.

G-Double-A-Y!!!! Thats what i have to so about being a cart-teacher. they better give me a fucking laptop or Something, afterall of the now 11 new hires (3+ of which I know are science and another subject, but managed to land a science classroom), i am probably the only one who physically cant push around a cart all day, and im the only one who has to! grrrrrrrrrrr

(other than that though everything else about the farmington district kicks butt... but the cart thing kinda dampens my enthusiasm about "setting up a classroom" b/c now i cant..)

plinkityplink @ 2005-08-06T15:27:00

2005-08-06T19:39:00Z

I just got my hair cut and I love it.... nah nah nah nah foo foo...

plinkityplink @ 2005-07-14T17:08:00

2005-07-14T21:14:48Z

so im going to new york with my mom in august for 3 days. any suggestions on Must See place/stores/museums? ive never been there so i want to hit up all the good spots since im going to have limited time.

did you know they have a sex and the city tour where you can go by where all of them "worked" and carries apartment and everything?? I totally want to go.. but i cant with my mom b/c one of the stops is a sexshop where charlotte bought her "rabbit" heh. ill just have to go back with some girls another time.

so whats going on for this weekend? are we still going out for a girls night on saturday or is something else fun planned? i gotta stay in the loop even though im far away.. we have to do something fun b/c dominic and i are going to be up north the next two weekends.

yep.. still bored..

plinkityplink @ 2005-07-11T19:43:00

2005-07-11T23:46:27Z

its official- im so bored im going crazy

going crazy and eating everything insight

eating everything in sight and everything hidden

eating my whole house and watching reruns of sex and the city over and over and over

ahhhhhh! help me!

i cant live here by myself and/or with my parents this year... its just too secluded and i just cant deal with it.

whatdaya think?

2005-07-07T01:32:26Z

crazy 8's on saturday??

i could go for some cheap beer, no cover and request 80's dancing... anyone else?

4th of july weekend

2005-07-06T01:54:28Z

this weekend was fun.... i got to shoot, dominic got to cut up some fish, and we got to run in the "big bear run" through the woods, and i got a bronze medal! (: (even though dominic beat me.. so he should have gotten it, but it was by age and sex).

theres a few more pictures at my photobucket, but i didnt want to clog up everyones journals. i dont know how to do the link to the comments page where all the pictures are.. if someone does can you let me know?

oh yeah.. and i decided today the pbs is the best station ever.

plinkityplink @ 2005-06-29T19:12:00

2005-06-29T23:13:06Z

its official! i work in farmington eeeee! and ill be making 5x what i used to make subbing... oh yeah (:

plinkityplink @ 2005-06-27T16:49:00

2005-06-27T20:51:09Z

EEEEEEEEEEEHH!!!!!!!!!

I got a job!!!

Power Middle, in Farmington Hills
7th grade Science/Social Studies!!

(:

its not official until i hear from the board but the principal only submitted me to them... soo....ahhhh! i totally got a job (:

yay me, and my first interview too (:

plinkityplink @ 2005-06-18T22:37:00

2005-06-19T02:37:22Z

booorrrreeeeddddddaaaa......

just babbles

2005-06-18T22:38:02Z

so today was another sex and the city marathon day. well, marathon with myself and my arts and crafts.

so i ran 6 miles yesturday, so i think i deserves to take today off.. hehe.

im ready for dominic to move home. im excited for next year, it'll be nice to be living with dominic again, its weird going from living together, to living at home with your parents. dominic and don and i are getting an apartment in clinton township somewhere.. next year will be fun b/c i wont have to drive through detroit everytime i want to do something. dearborn is sooo boring, i just sit around eating and watching tv.. that gets old pretty fast.

plinkityplink @ 2005-06-13T19:02:00

2005-06-13T23:05:04Z

bum de dum

i got a call from huron valley for an interview, should i be more excited? its just that its so far away.. is it far away or is it just me. id have to drive an hour to work... hm.. worth it??

i might as well go, hell, its interview practice, and it might wind up as a job!

who do you know? cause i obviously dont know enough people...

2005-06-10T02:21:31Z

oh shitty shit fuck fuck

one of the troy math jobs is already filled which means he already called for interviews. god damnit... and i did everything right and he even called me! and if after all that i still cant get even an interview, let alone a job...

its a fucking joke, really

shucks ):